sincerely,

dear you,

im glad that things ended on pretty good terms. im glad you understand this entire situation. i think we both know that this relationship has run its course and its time to do our own thing. if i love you as much as i say i do, i must let you go and never let you be held back. i must let you live your life in anyway possible for you to reach your full potential. and i’m gonna to the same for me. i dont want to be sad that this has ended, but rather be happy with what i’ve learned from you and what i’ve gotten out of this relationship. i’ve learned so much and will keep learning from every experience i encounter. its tough to get through this everyday. you taught me that i am capable of being a good girlfriend and i am capable of letting people in no matter how hard it may be. although there are days when i feel like i am physically in pain and feel hopeless and struggle to make it through the day without the thought of trying to talk to you crossing my mind.  i don’t know what the future holds for me and maybe one day i can cross paths with you once again. but either way, i know that i’ll be happy with my future as each day goes by. each day i know will get easier to overcome. i will go days without you coming to my mind and one day, i’ll be able to look at the memories we’ve made and just smile and reminisce. one day i’ll be able to see you without having that feeling of pain and hope. on this day i’ll be able to have a conversation with you without it being awkward and when that day comes, i will be able to let you back into my life. but until then, all i can do is wish you the best, carry on, and smile, laugh and enjoy the gifts i have been blessed with that comes with the trials i may overcome.

sincerely,

me.

boys are cheats and liars, they’re such a big disgrace

another dramatic post but i really dont care. im just sooooo tired. emotionally, physically. i think i have reached my worst boiling point.. EVER. i work my ass off in everything that i do including my relationships.  I realized that you can only do so much within your power to make things right and make the effort for the ones you love.  I guess if you love this person so much you will let anything go. but no matter how much you love them, is it worth your unhappiness? people can say blahblahblah you did this to yourself blahblah but like everyone says, you need to learn on your own and experience it yourself.  if someone says they love you, but will constantly do things that may hurt you, they obviously dont love you enough to make a change. im not trying to change people, i dont expect that. but i expected someone that constantly says they love me to show me love. say it all you want, but if the action is never seen it means nothing to me. i love you with all my heart, but you have hurt me way to much to let things slide anymore. if you’re willing to be with me make things work and fight for me. when i walk away from this do something to make me come back otherwise you can watch me leave. i never did anything to make a break and ive stood by you when everyone doubted you. im leaving all of it in your hands because ive done everything i possibly could to be the right one for you, but i guess im not what you want.  so if this is it, you can watch me gooooooooo as i keep this smile on my face.